My life feels like a Tilt-O-Whirl right now. For the next three weeks, I will be packing and cleaning and moving and getting ready for a new year with new students and co-workers. To say that I’m stunned is an understatement. All in all, life is good, if not excitingly terrifying for the moment.
It seems something has shifted in my head again. I broke down and went for a massage yesterday. While on the table I couldn’t help but think about how important it is to take care of my body. Later, I was watching Shalom in the Home, and he said something about how our bodies are on loan from God. I suppose this is enough for me to really throw myself in to creating balance in my life, and for me, that starts with food.
All this takes me back to the one thing that seemed to help me get my focus last year. I really do believe that health is not a one-size-fits-all endeavor. What has worked for my family and friends may or may not work for me, so I have to ask myself what does work. Then I have to answer honestly. I know that what works is cutting out processed foods, exercising daily, reminding myself that I have choices in life, and taking a parent stance with my head. (That means I will verbally tell myself no when I throw a tantrum about Dairy Queen.)
In reality, that’s not a difficult list. I know this works. Just today, I reminded myself that I could choose to go through the drive thru for lunch or I could just come home. I came home. I’ll write more about this later because I believe this is an important concept for anyone with an eating disorder. We all have choices.
